Why God?

Why God?

Why God?

Why God? A two-word question with several thousand words of depth. I wonder how many people since the beginning of time have asked the same question. Maybe the better question is how many people have not asked that question. Adam and Eve may have been the first with hands raised questioning (Why God?) as they rather hastily moved from paradise to despair.

I know I have asked (Why God?) many times in my life. I am asking that question a lot these days. Between catastrophic losses of life with family and friends, broken health, chronic pain, loss of career and finances, gutting of relationships, and a deep loss of self-confidence I am asking (Why God?) on loop right now. I am sure if I had enough energy to analyze deeper, I would admit to even more line items of life, politely referred to as What the Fudges. (the real word is not fudge)

Using 2020 as the starting point I have lost two uncles, an aunt and a cousin to heart attacks, Lou Gehrig’s disease and cancer. I lost two friends to the same type of cancer. The same type of cancer that I have. The same type of cancer that all three of us were diagnosed with within a ten-month window. I have sat through two funerals for my friends and left wondering how my own funeral will look like. Not if it will happen but when. I have watched two families, two wives and five children from their respective homes somehow be expected to carry on. Why God?

I struggle with still being here and my friends are gone. My friend Aron was…